“Subconscious Mind, I’m Catching On”
Its week 3 October 11,2018, on this journey of self discovery. So many more lessons learned this week.
Lets be real, This week was exceptionally hard for me because of so many reasons. I will need to break it down to a topic or two. I have been experiencing extreme pain in my left knee and left foot all week. Going back and forth to the Dr. to try to figure out what was going on. I was in so much pain I needed to use crutches to maneuver around the house. Trying to take a shower with so much pain and on crutches “forget about it” (impossible). At times I felt like a burden as I would continually ask my wife Rebecca for help. I know it tested her patience and her heart, I’m so grateful she stuck it out.
As a proud man I also felt like I couldn’t provide her with love and affection. I was going down this rabbit hole fast. What I started to noticed was I was suffering from pools of self pity. When I became aware this was going on, I immediately was reminded of the first scroll in “The Greatest Salesman”. I found me saying to myself “self pitty no more”, I quickly began to change my thoughts to thoughts of my future self. And I noticed my DMP started playing in my mind ( It was a powerful moment).
As my mind was shifting from self pity to self-awareness. I understood my old program was creeping in. Trying to pull me back to emotions and feelings I knew very well. I noticed that when you become aware of your thoughts, you add a whole other dimension to your thought process. At this point of noticing and being aware of what was taking place, I now know that this is a first test of many to come. I only hope I’m aware enough to catch every old programmed thought. This was a valuable learning lesson for me for so many reasons. I was able to identify my thought patterns and redirect them to more positive outcomes.
This is my mind and I’m in charge